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Stress and frustration from external sources is impossible. The stress and frustration we feel is internal. This is something I’ve been working on a lot recently, specifically at work. I feel a little lost. I’m doing my work and it’s not all that inspiring. I feel like in the past I’ve had all this energy and excitement for work. That seems to have faded over the last year. I’m not sure if that’s because I’m doing something different or if I’m bored. I’ve never been at a job longer than four years. I am quickly approaching that mark at my current place and I’m not even looking.

I think some of it is a little bit of everything. I’m bored with what I’m doing. I’m also learning how to be a manager and that requires letting go a lot of the work I used to do. I don’t have time for it and the work I was doing aught to be passed off to the people that work for me so they can advance their career. It can feel a bit overwhelming, but again that’s my internal dialogue. Work has always been overwhelming. Even my first job as a bagger at the grocery store.

Saturday’s are the days you wanted to work. That’s when most people went shopping and we got the most tips. We only worked for tips. The worst weekend was reserve weekend. The amount of people that came in doubled. The problem was that the reservists lived civilian lives and didn’t tip baggers and their local grocery store. Tipping would also require cutting into their savings from the at cost items they bought (and they bought a lot of them). Either day was usually filled with a lot of chaos. Maybe that’s where I thrive though is chaos and things seem to have stabilized a bit for me. Either way I have to change my own thinking, because I don’t think looking for a new job is the answer.