Fear The Fear of Death

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With death comes the end of fear. I’ve often wondered how I would react if my plane was going down or if I was starring some other death scenario in the face. Would I given it to fear or accept my fate. I’d like to think I would accept my fate because to allow fear in only brings panic. We all die at some point. Fear of death is a waste of energy. I say that but I’ve been up high and found my heart start to race.

This pandemic is surrounded by fear. When I talk around the acceptance of the death numbers and ponder on if the reaction is worth the effort, I’m met with aghast people. Even one life is too much. I respond that we all meet that fate at some point. There response to that is that life becomes meaningless and I just smile. I often keep to myself on the topic so the conversations are rare. I’m usually told I’m wrong. Which is fine because I can’t control their thoughts.

Human Scale

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In the grand scheme of things I play a very small role. In my office I realize that I only play a small part to the rest of the organization. This realization has helped me in security. I could easily feel very important in a field that helps prevent bad things from happening and responding to things when they do happen. I think a lot of security people do feel that way. This can have the adverse effect of telling people what they need instead of understanding what they need. I try to find that balance between what they need to get done and how we can do that in a safe way.

What Comes To Us All

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The same fate comes to us all. Wealth and legacy are all left behind. It doesn’t really matter. I think this is why I intend to joy life and not spend my evenings and weekends working. I do when I needed. Today was a day where all the work was where it needed to be and no emails were coming in. I decided I’d cut out of work a little early to enjoy the afternoon a little more.

Know Thyself - Before It's Too Late

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I often wonder how much I know myself. There are times when I know I should be doing one thing and instead chose something else. I’ve felt this going to bed. I’m tired and ready for bed. There’s a part of me though that just doesn’t want to go to bed. I want to stay up, regardless of the plans or obligations I have the next day. Instead of trying to fight it, I’m trying to be mindful about those times and ask why. The answers unfortunately don’t come easy, so I still haven’t figured it out.

One of my favorite books is The Four Tendencies by Gretchen Rubin. It gave me a lot of insights into who I am and what motivates me. This has helped me in my day-to-day life. It can also be a struggle. From the book, I identify as a questioner. I question everything. I don’t except things like, “because I said so” or “because that’s the way we’ve always done it.” I need a logical reason to stop questioning things. This has made me good at work. It’s also rubbed people the wrong way at times because they feel I am attacking them when I’m really trying to understand. Another negative is that I’m prone to addiction because I want to shut off the analytical side of the brain. It constantly goes for questioners and some times I just want relief. This of course leads to excessive video games and some times alcohol. I’m working on both.

Other books have been helpful in understanding who I am and I’m looking for more to better help my self know who I am. Some times I may just need to sit and think.

Everlasting Good Health

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Reasoned choice is what I have in my control. It can do a lot for my health. Both good and bad. It can make me look on the positive or negative side of things. I will quit choice and choice will never quit me. It’s entirely up to me.